tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-28521009071187726352024-03-04T22:31:02.649-06:00it's pronounced "BarBerry"sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.comBlogger315125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-70992605437358959752015-09-08T22:03:00.000-05:002015-09-08T22:03:09.440-05:00No regretsTonight I need to write to be able to sleep. I read a quote that said something about being more creative at night. I eat most of my sugar at night, which makes me kind of weepy anyway. Looking back, I didn't always make great decisions late at night either. Maybe something about lowered judgment or being tired.<br />
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Living in Columbia has been a fresh start for me. A good start. It's been really, really, really good for me to be surrounded by positive influences. Alex loves me and we have fun hanging out together. I think my heart will explode every time I think about our kids because they're so amazing. Alex's family has been super supportive. They love us, and I've always felt welcome with them. I have friends here with whom I enjoy spending time. I recently got a job; my supervisor is incredible, and I couldn't ask for better co-workers.<br />
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And yet sometimes I still feel a twinge of sadness at the loss of relationships. Forever. I don't think I could ever go back and be friends with people from Life Before. I'm not even sure some of them were healthy relationships, but I felt deeply in them and now they are gone. Very few of those relationships have translated into my New Life, and that's probably OK. It's probably good.<br />
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Losing my grandmother has me thinking a lot about people, about relationships, about how to spend time in this life. I was so full of pride thinking about how I wanted to get my master's degree and my PhD and have a name for myself. And maybe someday, because those aren't terrible things. But I also realized how much I really really love having family and having friends and I don't want jobs and school to be all-consuming.<br />
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It used to be how I found my relationships. I was busy-in high school and college. I loved going to class and to work and to church and to volunteer activities and building relationships and friendships in all these venues. I loved all of it.<br />
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But now I'm learning (even after some time) how to be a wife and a mom and that kind of being busy is SO different than what I used to do that sometimes I forget that I can be happy and not be out doing things all the time.<br />
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Not that life is all about being happy. It's a lot more than that. I'm just saying that I had 8 years of being busy and loving it and living it. Sometimes I look back and think that's what a fulfilled life looks like, and I begin to wonder what life would have been like had I made different decisions.<br />
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"Living with no regrets"<br />
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That's still something I struggle with sometimes. I have absolutely no complaints, but sometimes I don't "forget was is behind, and press on to what is ahead."<br />
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"I press on toward the goal that is the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."<br />
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So I'm deferring grad school. I'm cherishing my currently relationships. I'm still mourning lost ones, but maybe that's okay too, because it means my Life Before still meant something.sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-36197070541164205592015-09-06T20:46:00.000-05:002015-09-06T20:46:17.289-05:00Dancing with AdaraThere's nothing so freeing and so exhausting as dancing with a two(almost three)-year old. We turned on the "Honey I'm Good" Pandora Station and danced our hearts out. When the only one watching is Adara, nothing is embarrassing.<br />
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Today Adara and I were looking through a book of photos from my wedding. She saw a photo of Alex surrounded by his family, and started naming all the people in the photo. Then she commented, "I forgot to be in this photo." In her mind, she already knows she belongs in the picture with all the other people in her family. I love that.sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-7272855237945646142015-09-04T21:32:00.004-05:002015-09-04T21:32:56.884-05:00Memories (photos of grandma)<br />
Today I attended a memorial service. I am so glad that I went. It was sad, but also joyful of the hope we have in Christ Jesus. I will see my grandma again. I also got to see my grandpa, and hug him before we headed back home.<br />
I finally found some of my photos of my grandparents from our last two trips to visit. I'm so glad I have these happy memories with them!<br />
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<br />sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-14252649785286631142015-08-31T20:54:00.001-05:002015-08-31T20:54:45.173-05:00Sometimes I don't know what to doFor so long I didn't know what to do, so I did "the next thing."That's how I keep going when faced with crisis. I don't know how to handle situations, so I do what I know how to do.<br />
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I'm struggling with regret. My grandparents got moved into a nursing home less than three hours away and I didn't visit them once since they moved in. Sure, I had a young baby, but I definitely could have made the effort. I made plenty of time to go through my own personal crisis and try out new jobs and school ideas and sell my house and then switch back to social work and get a full time job. Who does that? It was so selfish. I was neglecting time with my babies to try and find myself. How much time did I miss out with them just to focus on myself? And I didn't even take the time to go visit my grandparents in a nursing home, just because it was inconvenient.<br />
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And what did I do when I found out my grandmother was dying? I went to work. I didn't rush to her unconscious side to say my last goodbye. It would have been easy-but I wanted to stay home. I selfishly didn't want to give up the time. And now it's too late to do that. I'm going to the memorial service. There's nothing else I can do. Maybe it's because I need closure, but going is the right thing to do.<br />
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I should have gone to see her, and I should have gone to say good-bye. I'm not sure if a blog is the right place to bawl out my sadness, but it's the only place I have right now. And even a blog is a selfish thing to do. It's all about how bad I feel about how I've handled situations.<br />
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I'm going to go work on paperwork, because it has to get done and I don't know what else to do right now.sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-3490563346379892052015-08-30T22:00:00.000-05:002015-08-30T22:00:22.602-05:00Balance and routineMy life has changed so much in the past five years. Marriage, taking and quitting jobs, pregnancy and babies, renting/buying/selling houses, losing loved ones, getting into and then delaying grad school.<br />
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My whole life I've been a write. Never professionally, but writing down my life is definitely my go-to coping skill. If I write at night, I always sleep better. If I get stressed, I can let it go (at least for a while). I wrote some letters I'd been thinking about for months now. I even have stamps in my purse. I'll probably send them tomorrow. So I'm going to write again.<br />
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This Saturday would have been my first day of Trevecca's Marriage and Family Counseling/Therapy program. However, over the last couple of weeks I realized that I currently cannot balance grad school, a full time job, and having a husband and kids. It would be really terrible to be studying to be a marriage and family therapist, and yet never spend time with my husband or kids. So I deferred a semester while I adjust to working a full time Youth Villages job. I'm ever so glad I did.<br />
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Because I did not start grad school yesterday, I spend a lot of this weekend working and working and working and working to catch up on paperwork and house work. What a relief to not be able to think of anything else I could do right away for work. I'm sure there is, but for today, I'm done. I also got some lunches made, cleaned the kitchen, got my pump ready to bring to work with me, got the kids stuff ready, and <i>I folded and put away all our laundry</i>. I got more house work done this weekend than I have in the past 8 months since August was born. I'm pretty sure that's true.<br />
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I also exercised. That pretty much never happened. You know what I did? <i>I ate sugar.</i> Adara asked me for a cookie, and Alex asked me to make healthier ones. We've been trying to eat healthier again. So I made chocolate chip pan cookies with almond flour and organic sugar and organic chocolate chips and real vanilla. Same amount of sugar, but organic and gluten free. I was almost bouncing off the walls and found new motivation for life. Adara joined right in. Exercising together used to be our everyday thing. (note: eating sugar also puts me in a TERRIBLY stressed mood. However, I convinced Alex to keep the kids away while I fueled my stress into cleaning.)<br />
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I remember the last time I saw her. I was pregnant with Adara, and we drove to visit and have a 60th wedding anniversary celebration. We stopped by their house on the way, and grandma was so happy to see us. On the day of the celebration she sat at the table with grandpa. Even though he didn't always know who we were or what was going on, she still looked at him lovingly. She still held his hand. She loved holding his hand. </div>
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I remember when we came and hung out at her house. I remember she told us to all get sticky notes and write our names on whatever we wanted someday. I remember when we helped clean out their trailer of stuff and I got to bring home some baskets from Ecuador. I felt so special.</div>
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Grandma loved taking care of her family. When she visited us over holidays, she would always make a huge pile of toast and buttered each piece. </div>
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I remember when my grandparents came to visit. I remember thinking I wanted a marriage like theirs. I remember seeing my grandpa kiss my grandma and she had such a huge smile on her face. They really, truly loved each other.</div>
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She used to crochet all the time, and she made us all blankets. She asked me about my favorite colors, and then crochet a quilt of squares with all the colors. It's one of my most treasures things. She would talk about crocheting a quilt for all of her kids and grand kids.</div>
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I remember getting to stay over night at my grandparent's house in Guatemala. I remember thinking it was cool that grandma had milk that I could blow bubbles with a straw, and that I could always have a fig newton at her house. </div>
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Looking back, I don't have tons and tons of specific memories with grandma. I remember more how I felt around her. I remember feeling loved and cared for every time. I remember feeling happy with her.</div>
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Even though I haven't seen her in years. I'm really going to miss her.</div>
sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-54641153286105309962015-06-05T08:02:00.000-05:002015-06-05T08:02:59.929-05:00Being ThankfulI read somewhere that a bad attitude can be fixed by writing out a thankful list. So I'm hoping this will help my struggling attitude and lack of life direction today.<br />
1. For my God. I can at least know He is in control of everything.<br />
2. Food. For strength. For comfort. For fun.<br />
3. For Alex. He provides financially, emotionally, enthusiastically, honestly, and encourages me to pursue whatever I want.<br />
4. For Adara and her enthusiasm to do everything with me. She always wants to be with me, and I never have to wonder if she loves me. She inspires me to love unconditionally.<br />
5. For baby August. His smile is so sweet, and he really is an easy baby most of the time. Balancing two kids is one of the hardest things I've ever done, but he lights up when he sees me, and that's very encouraging.<br />
6. For my extended family. For my mom, who drove us down to my brother's wedding. For my in-laws, who watch my kids while I try out different pursuits and encourage me when I'm struggling.<br />
7. For my health. When people don't feel good, it's hard to imagine doing other productive things. Even though and discouraged because I'm not sure what I want to do, I am able to contemplate these options because I'm physically able to do them.<br />
8.Grace. Adara says she's thankful for grace. From the mouth of babes for sure.<br />
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When asked: "What do you want your life to look like 5, 10, 20 years down the road?"<br />
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I don't know.<br />
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But right now my two year old wants to play "What color do you see?" So I'm going to stop ignoring her and do some soul-searching later.<br />
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Dr. Sears and attachment parenting. Charlotte Mason and her ideas about schooling.<br />
And I'm surrounded by stay-at-home moms with no plans to go back to work.<br />
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I feel guilty for not feeling the same way. I think maybe it's my pride-if God has called me to stay at home, then I should learn to be content.<br />
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I absolutely love and adore my children I love them so much my heart aches and I hold them close and I tell them that I love them often. Even recently I can remember being so happy at home.<br />
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But then my husband mentioned that I could be a nurse practitioner. I'm still not 100% confident in my ability to do well in all the classes. I think he has more confidence in me than I do.<br />
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And I heard stories about other moms going back to work-even becoming doctors!<br />
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Hope grows inside me daily. I have wonderful in-laws who offered to watch my kids as often as we need. I know my kids will be well-loved there. I know that I can pump to feed my baby, and I know that formula is an acceptable supplement if needed. I am not going to feel guilty for these choices.<br />
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This time I was going to wear my baby, bed-share, nurse on demand, the works.<br>
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This time, when I could feel myself struggling with my temper because my screaming baby wouldn't stop, I just put him down and took a break. Sometimes he would cry the whole time, but often he would fall asleep.<br>
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He's found his thumb. If I can't rock/bounce him to sleep, he usually can calm himself down within minutes.<br>
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This past week he's been falling asleep at fairly predictable times. And by 7:30 pm he's usually ready for sleep and stays asleep until around midnight.<br>
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Then I usually nurse him next to me and he sleeps next to me until morning.<br>
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This morning he just needed to be burped and then slept in his own bed for another couple of hours. He's been napping beautifully and he's so happy for most of his awake time. He loves to smile and make baby noises.<br>
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If we are Christians, we believe that we matter, that everyone is created in God's image, and should be treated that way.<br>
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My heart is broken tonight. There's so much sadness in my tiny little world. Most of the time I can live in my little bubble and pretend everything is peachy.<br>
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What if I thought before each decision, "If I were extraordinary, how would I act? How would I treat the person (my kids, my spouse, my family, the cashier at the grocery store) if I really believed they are extraordinary?"<br>
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On December 31, 2014, Adara woke up at 2 am crying. This doesn't happen very often, but when I does I get her some milk, let her lay down next to me, and then bring her back to her bed when she is calmed down. This is what I did, but then she woke up again at 4am crying and this time she refused to go back to sleep. This never happens. Alex ended up taking her into the living room and watching TV with her so that I could get a few hours sleep. I then got up and sat with her so that Alex could sleep before he went into work. I got her some "coffee milk" and she fell asleep next to me.</div>
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Later that day I did my prenatal yoga, but I didn't clean as much as I sometimes do because I was already feeling pretty tired. I got a shower, Alex left for work, and Adara woke up early from her nap acting very tired and grumpy. I posted this photo and joked that August would come soon because of how ill-prepared I felt today. At this point I was not feeling great, and was even in the early stages of labor. I chalked it up to my lack of sleep and the Braxton Hicks I was feeling on a near-daily basis.</div>
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That evening I spent some time cleaning up and trying to play with Adara. At some point in the evening I gave her a bath. She was splashing a lot and so instead of getting upset, I climbed into the tup with her-this caused instant relief from the pain I was experiencing, and Adara loved pouring water all over my giant belly. Adara was super cooperative the rest of the evening-she helped me wash the dishes, clean up her books, and put away her toys.<br />
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And here I am with my precious baby! The rest of the hospital stay went great! I did take Motrin because the pitocin and breastfeeding made my uterus contract. This is good, but also painful! I could walk around after giving birth! This was the kind of recovery I'd heard about with a natural birth, and I'm so thankful that everything happened just as it did. I'll leave you all with a few photos from the hospital.<br />
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Augustus Galen. We are calling him August. "Augustus" means "great" and "Galen" means "calm". We thought "great calm" was a perfect name for our second child. We love the history behind the name "Augustus," and I think it is aptly paired with his "Galen". We found his middle name by looking for "G" names online, so that baby August and his sister Adara could have the same initials.<br />
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"Great Calm" is also how I feel about this pregnancy. It hasn't always been this way, and I'm sure there will be bouts of anxiety and over-excitement in the future, but right now I feel perfectly at peace. I know he will come when he is ready, I feel adequately prepared for his arrival. I know that I am surrounded by people who love and support us, and I know that Adara is over-the-moon excited to meet "baby August".<br />
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God has prepared us for this second bundle of joy. He continually shows us how he provides for us abundantly more than we deserve. This season of Advent-waiting-has never seemed more true for me this year.sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-65043736941779360192014-11-27T21:05:00.001-06:002014-11-27T21:05:31.435-06:00Thanksgiving parts one and twoSuch a fun, family-filled day:) I'm snuggling with Adara, so this post is mostly photos:<div>Part one at my house<br><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5jG4NEb79gfvXMUKc2Pfjc0QyxUCeBWj5JXj-9YexTmP2Fa-llkMHpubHT2Lz8EPrJRB9mmG428l-5SgXD1knwyIFCxLuCthv_SvIZf7Ivmwaqpvgp1_YSXzazgkjY54G3Q4HE0BO2ZLx/s640/blogger-image--1576057055.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5jG4NEb79gfvXMUKc2Pfjc0QyxUCeBWj5JXj-9YexTmP2Fa-llkMHpubHT2Lz8EPrJRB9mmG428l-5SgXD1knwyIFCxLuCthv_SvIZf7Ivmwaqpvgp1_YSXzazgkjY54G3Q4HE0BO2ZLx/s640/blogger-image--1576057055.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSlSxBhVQ4w00kK0RCvrkKzLr6KaVdFiD0IpE_25-evNCp9kKaGfSpuIjnwwL5_eHMEQkA1Cwji3MhpjqmVETQSWZJvY35jn-GxkJAJ6-q6_WyxI4ZTOT8PcsbO2VJHTwDbUhBhhy9yegZ/s640/blogger-image--1925385184.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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Well, nesting has started for sure! I've wanted to move the changing table out of Adara's room so we can use it in our room for our newborn (Adara isn't potty trained yet, but she's easy to change without a table). I finally cleaned up and organized her room and took out a set of plastic drawers and the changing table. Her room looks so much bigger!</div>
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We have a really big master bedroom, so finding a place to put the changing table was no problem. I also am using some of Adara's drawers for baby boy stuff. Adara doesn't need it right now, and I don't have to buy new drawers. I'm sure our infant won't care that his boy clothes are in pink drawers.</div>
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I also adjusted Adara's carseat. Thanks to my infant CPR and carseat safety class, I now know that a forward facing carseat needs straps at or above the toddler's shoulders. Doing so meant taking out the booster's insert-another reminder of how fast Adara is growing! ps-I adjusted the headrest back after taking this photo. Adara's quote: "I'm SO safe!" She will be now that I know her carseat is fit for her.<br />
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I'm so thankful I was able to get some baby-related tasks accomplished! I can now focus on other things-like making sure I'm prepared for Thanksgiving tomorrow!sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-18415507988366870082014-11-25T23:45:00.001-06:002014-11-25T23:45:19.976-06:00Countdown to thanksgiving:day 25-in case of emergencyI packed a "just in case" bag for the hospital today! I wasn't planning on it; I was looking for something to wear on Thanksgiving and instead found clothes that I know I'll need at the hospital. I'm thankful to have it somewhat ready!<div><br></div><div>Here's what I put in my bag:</div><div>-Warm button up pajama top and pants</div><div>-another pair of loose pajama pants</div><div>-a few shirts that are soft and stretchy so I can nurse in them</div><div>-a pair of leggings in case I get tired of pajama pants</div><div>-three pairs of socks</div><div>-three sleep/stretchy nursing bras and undies</div><div>-one zip up hoodie</div><div>For the baby:</div><div>-two sleepers</div><div>-a onesie and socks</div><div>-birth plan</div><div>For Alex:</div><div>-one complete outfit. If he needs more he can go home since we live really close to the hospital </div><div><br></div><div>I'm sure I'll think of other things along the way, but the hospital provides a lot so if I needed to go at anytime, I think I'll be fine with what I've packed. </div><div><br></div><div>Feel free to leave suggestions. I'll be prepping over the next six weeks!</div><div><br></div>sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-17126751541751092802014-11-24T23:17:00.001-06:002014-11-24T23:17:54.708-06:00Countdown to thanksgiving: day 24-my homeToday I am especially thankful for my home:a place that is the perfect size for our family, and a relatively relaxed environment. I try to make it a safe and enjoyable place to be, and it usually is. I'm thankful we live in a good, safe neighborhood.sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-81121572882357726522014-11-23T19:44:00.001-06:002014-11-23T19:44:04.791-06:00Countdown to Thanksgiving: day 23-Pinterest foodPinterest usually causes me to feel inadequate and starving, so I have to choose when I use the site. However, I love how easy it to save ideas and reference them later. Today I made a modified version of sweet potato pie that I pinned to try at some point. It looks pretty AND it was yummy! I made two of them with only one package of frozen peas and one lb of ground beef! And we have plenty of leftovers!<div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheKblnjWwzjIcil3g5DrZdBntdvH7DGoLwuFRnV40UKP-IS_taNHwZ0OTNl26jzp6loh1mu_kffuioABR4UIp2by67IqrrOGj1hoovD5s-uIWnnr0ic8aAqo97GvCWiELxI-lqnswVK0mN/s640/blogger-image--1284544035.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheKblnjWwzjIcil3g5DrZdBntdvH7DGoLwuFRnV40UKP-IS_taNHwZ0OTNl26jzp6loh1mu_kffuioABR4UIp2by67IqrrOGj1hoovD5s-uIWnnr0ic8aAqo97GvCWiELxI-lqnswVK0mN/s640/blogger-image--1284544035.jpg"></a></div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgosMtG5k4DookuVRAXxFug5Q-FSiKx2GMGbNBBESMH5r-JYQHTqTNNDg2EPPmdd6IqE4F5bRusic-CRr5L-CZASk6gY9RRZaHeD91ROs_1J5y3ofgkkitCXBXMlji_Jm6B2-5YjaAcPs1Y/s640/blogger-image--208238521.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgosMtG5k4DookuVRAXxFug5Q-FSiKx2GMGbNBBESMH5r-JYQHTqTNNDg2EPPmdd6IqE4F5bRusic-CRr5L-CZASk6gY9RRZaHeD91ROs_1J5y3ofgkkitCXBXMlji_Jm6B2-5YjaAcPs1Y/s640/blogger-image--208238521.jpg"></a></div></div>sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-68664272860601051242014-11-22T20:51:00.001-06:002014-11-22T20:51:13.346-06:00Countdown to Thanksgiving: day 22-infant CPR classToday I went to a free infant CPR class at Maury Regional. I WISH I had gone when I was pregnant with Adara! I'm not sure why I didn't. Not only did they give us an infant model on which to practice and bring home, but we also received some really good car seat safety information. I'm so thankful that the hospital offers this class! I feel much more prepared in case of an emergency. sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-25939398337273196552014-11-21T21:23:00.002-06:002014-11-21T21:23:31.874-06:00Countdown to Thanksgiving: Day 21-coffee<br />
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Today I ventured to Walmart to get some necessities-like coffee, of course. We ordered the "Friend's" Central Perk coffee online, and then I decided to try some different flavors this week. Flavored coffee is very hit or miss, but at least this brand is fairly inexpensive. I <i>try</i> to stick to only one cup of coffee a day, but sometimes a second one (with lots of milk) sneaks its way in. I'm thankful for various flavors of coffee, and getting to enjoy a cup in the morning.</div>
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sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-91745603288354731852014-11-20T23:13:00.001-06:002014-11-20T23:13:59.629-06:00Countdown to thanksgiving: day 20-Youversion appEvery night I read my "verse of the day", and sometimes the chapter around it. It's nice to have the YouVersion app available. I'm thankful for this as I wind down tonight and get ready to sleep. Here's tonight's verse: Whoever walks with the wise becomes wise, but the companion of fools will suffer harm. (Proverbs 13:20 ESV)sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-26757207072463505772014-11-19T15:58:00.000-06:002014-11-19T15:58:29.386-06:00Countdown to Thanksgiving: day 19-Unexpected nourishment<br />
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Two things today that I'm especially thankful for, but didn't expect:</div>
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<a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B005JAT3TU/ref=oh_aui_detailpage_o00_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1">Garden of Life Raw Prenatal Vitamins</a>: Even thought I've not been super careful about how I eat, my nightly leg cramps have been virtually non-existent! I'm generally feeling better, and I really think these vitamins are a contributing factor. I'm also thankful that they are available on Amazon for half the price of Whole Foods! Thanks to everyone who recommended them to me! </div>
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I am glad I made the trip to Whole Foods for the vitamins, because that's where I discovered this delicious milk:</div>
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We've been buying whole milk for Adara (she loves it and it was an easy way to wean her), and we put it in our coffee. I'm sure it's this good because it's local, fresh, and is super-creamy. I used to consider myself very lactose-intolerant, but this milk doesn't make me feel sick! A friend of mine then told me it's available at the <a href="https://www.facebook.com/puckettscolumbia">Puckett's Downtown</a>, so now it's convenient for me to buy! We were buying Horizon Organic milk at Kroger, but it isn't as tasty. Now if I feel hungry in between meals and don't feel like fixing anything, a small glass of <a href="http://hatcherfamilydairy.studio202.net/OurProducts/WholeMilk.aspx">Hatcher's Whole Milk</a> will do the trick.</div>
sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-28278586981410059212014-11-18T22:45:00.001-06:002014-11-18T22:45:30.325-06:00Countdown to Thanksgiving:day 18-Bible study/small groupToday was the last official meeting for the Bible study I've been a part of for the past few months. We've been going through the "Gospel Growth" series, and it's been so good to have a safe place to learn, reflect, and share with other ladies. I m so thankful for their open hearts and non-judgment attitude. Even when I've shared some deep, disturbing struggles, they are there encouraging me, and never come across as pious or having all the answers. I look forward to our time together every week, and this last meeting had a good sense of closure. I hope to be able to participate again next spring!sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2852100907118772635.post-60264345335240072802014-11-17T20:13:00.001-06:002014-11-17T20:13:48.683-06:00Countdown to Thanksgiving: day 17-a healthy 2 year oldAdara had her 2 year checkup today, and everything looks great! The office measured her at 34.5 inches and 26 lbs. she doesn't need to take Floradix anymore because her iron levels look great! we sang "time for your checkup" throughout the visit, and Adara cooperated beautifully. I also briefly talked to the pediatrician about being our doctor for both our kiddos, and I think that's going to be the easiest solution. sayitbarberryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06048638883580328851noreply@blogger.com0